"Life has many ways of testing a person's will. Either by having nothing happen at all or by having everything happen all at once."
So here i am, dedicated this entry for someone who have been through a lot of hardships in the past years until now. I am not a psychologist or whatever or someone whom expert in whatever. This is just an advice from someone who is in the same age with you and as someone who have been through a lot more than you did.
Dear someone,
The fact that your health is in a bad condition makes me sad. I cried badly the early morning before you told us about your health. I just don't know why but that was the first time i cried badly in front of my classmates and the bad things was there's a lecturer in the class. You asked me what happened and the others asked me too. But, i couldn't told you guys. You even asked me to follow you to go somewhere else so we could cry together but then i ignore you. I'm sorry. Later, i'm relieved. But then, you told us about you, all i can do is telling myself not to cry because i'm worried you'll be crying too. I don't want you to feel guilty. You asked why am i not crying. And i'm just smiled at you. Just smile.
I know how hard it was to endure the pain and the sorrow. I've been through it alone without no one ever knowing it. I'm still survive till today and i'm greatful for it. Alhamdulillah. If i can endure it, you can do it too, babe. You can! All you have to do is that you believe in yourself. You must believe!
Babe,
The best way is, back to the concept. Go back to Allah. Ask Him for His guidance. Ask Him to help you. Pray to Him. Tell all you need to Him. He is the best listener and the best place to be with. Read the Quran and your soul will be in peace. Please do this! Do the 5 times prayers. Never missed it even though you're too sick. Cause in solat, there are many ways you can do.
Surround yourself with positive peoples. This might help you to be more happy, cheerful and helps you to fight the pain. Positive is much stronger than negative. You have to change your mind set and attitude from negative into positive.
That's all for now. I am sorry for not being good enough and for not helping you in a few things. I want you to be happy, successful. But you have to find your own way and do it on your own. It's fine to ask others for some helps but don't take advantage on the.
"Alangkah indahnya kejayaan itu kalau ianya datang dari hasil usaha kita sendiri tanpa banuan orang lain. Nikmatnya sungguh memuaskan."
Love you.